80中 暴怒下一掌失手 痴呆中右耳出血(1/2)

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    <h3>80中 暴怒下一掌失手 痴呆中右耳出血（第1页）</h3><script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5LiA56eS6K6w5L2P44CQeGlhb3lhbndlbnh1ZeOAkeeyvuW9qeaXoOW8ueeql+WFjei0ue+8gei/meS4luS4iuS8muacieS6uuWSjOiHquW3seS4gOagt+KAlOKAlOWboOS4uuWIq+S6uueahOWujOe+juiAjOWwhuiHquW3seaOqOWFpeWzoeiwt+e7neWig++8n+WMheaZk+ajoOa3seefpeS6uuaXoOWujOS6uu+8jOacgOWQjuWluemZt+WFpeS6huekvuS6pOeahOaBkOaDp+aXoOazleiHquaLlO+8jOW8gOWni+WPmOW+l+iwqOWwj+aFjuW+ru+8jOWPmOW+l+S4jeWDj+iHquW3seOAgjwvcD4='));</script>

    一秒记住【xiaoyanwenxue】精彩无弹窗免费！这世上会有人和自己一样——因为别人的完美而将自己推入峡谷绝境？包晓棠深知人无完人，最后她陷入了社交的恐惧无法自拔，开始变得谨小慎微，变得不像自己。

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    晓棠近来总是自卑，虽然上次打错货款的事情已经过去了，但心理上她依然对自己不满意。思来想去，这种不满意的根源该是学历吧。学历上的自卑好像贫穷一样，怎么虚荣伪装也是徒劳一场。她在努力，一直在努力，可是结果如同风中的柳絮。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

    学历造成的自轻像瘟疫一样，悄悄蔓延。不知从何时起，她感受到自己变得不会表达了。以朋友圈为例，她不敢发任何动态，因为发出的动态好像在某种层面上泄露了她的无知、自卑、愚蠢或贫穷，好似玫瑰花一般，随意抓住一片叶、一截枝、一瓣花或一阵味儿便晓得它为何物。她羡慕那些整天在朋友圈里炫耀小孩的、知识的、财富的、容颜的、看破世俗的，他们尚有一条通道可释放自己的力比多，而自己好像被什么东西勒着，不敢抬腿迈出一步。她害怕自己陷入偏激或落后，怕得不敢前进。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5Li65LuA5LmI5ZGA77yf5aWz5Lq65Yed5aSp5LiA6Zeu44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

    为什么呀？女人凝天一问。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5Lmf6K645q2j5aaC5aW55Zyo5Y6V5omA5Lit5ZCs5Yiw55qE6YKj5ZCN5Ye657qz5omA6KiA4oCU4oCU6L+e5YWs5Y+455qE5YmN5Y+w5Lmf5piv5pys56eR5q+V5Lia55qE44CC5piv5ZWK77yM5p6X5oC755uR5piv5aSN5pem5aSn5a2m5q+V5Lia55qE77yM6LS65aeQ5piv5bed5aSn5q+V5Lia55qE77yM5Lu75oCd6L2p5piv5Lq65aSn5q+V5Lia55qE77yM6bqm5L6d5L6d5piv6YeN5aSn5q+V5Lia55qE77yM5ZCV5aic5piv5YyX5biI5aSn5q+V5Lia55qE77yM5rGk5q2j5piv6KW/5Y2X5aSn5a2m5q+V5Lia55qE77yM6IuP5Y+M57qi6IuP5aeQ5piv5pqo5Y2X5aSn5a2m5q+V5Lia55qE77yM6ICM5aW55YyF5pmT5qOg5ZGi77yf5oOt5oSn6Iez5p6B77yM6L+e5LiA5Liq5q2j5YS/5YWr57uP55qE5LiT56eR5Lmf5rKh5pyJ5LiK6L+H44CC5Zyo6L+Z5qC355qE546v5aKD5Lit77yM5YyF5pmT5qOg5aSE5aSE5oSf5Yiw6KKr5Y6L6L+r5ZKM5LiN6Ieq55Sx77yM5Y2z5L2/5aW55riF5qWa6L+Z5Lqb5a+55q+U5ZCO55qE6LSf6Z2i5oOF57uq5YWo5piv6Ieq5bex54GM6L6T57uZ6Ieq5bex55qE44CC5Y6f5Lul5Li65aSp5LiK5Lq65Lq66Z2e56We5Y2z5LuZ77yM5Y205LiN5oOz6Ieq5bex5Y+q5piv5Yy65Yy65by86ams5rip44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

    也许正如她在厕所中听到的那名出纳所言——连公司的前台也是本科毕业的。是啊，林总监是复旦大学毕业的，贺姐是川大毕业的，任思轩是人大毕业的，麦依依是重大毕业的，吕娜是北师大毕业的，汤正是西南大学毕业的，苏双红苏姐是暨南大学毕业的，而她包晓棠呢？惭愧至极，连一个正儿八经的专科也没有上过。在这样的环境中，包晓棠处处感到被压迫和不自由，即使她清楚这些对比后的负面情绪全是自己灌输给自己的。原以为天上人人非神即仙，却不想自己只是区区弼马温。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

    事实上，包晓棠一直在排斥这种从工作关系到朋友关系的转化。上个公司给了她沉重的教训，经验强迫她认同工作关系只是单纯的工作关系，绝不能往前再走一步。当工作关系变得复杂时，人在工作环境中的状态随机亦变得复杂。她不想面临这种错综复杂，所以极力地回避。社会化无孔不入，如反智一样无处不在，如病毒一样超速传播，如科技一样可以革命可以升级。终究是躲不过，包晓棠做不到清水一湾。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

    当危机来临时，职场人士的选择向来狭隘——要么改变环境，要么改变自己，要么改变认知态度。对于这三者，晓棠似乎都很难改变，所以她害怕出现问题，极力躲过复杂。也许是她的理智和头脑不够把控她的环境，也许是她的人格类型偏向于逃离高强度、高风险、高曝光、高成果的事情，也许是她太过敏感悲观总爱纠结莫须有的情境。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+56a75byA54yr5ZKW55qE6L+U56iL6L2m5LiK77yM5YyF5pmT5qOg6Zm35YWl5LqG6L+36Iyr44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

    离开猫咖的返程车上，包晓棠陷入了迷茫。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

    她想要缩小社交圈，将社交圈缩小到自己浑身自在的地步。她已然这么做了，结果呢？结果是她越来越孤独，孤独到已经失去找到伴侣的可能性了。她需要人生伴侣吗？她还打算结婚恋爱吗？无论答案是黑还是白，在心底深处，她多少是渴望有人相伴到老的。可是她的白马王子现在在哪里呀？他今年多大年纪呀？他做什么工作呢？他年纪比她大吗？他是相亲认识的吗？他吃得惯陕西口味吗？他能接受她这种学历吗？他能接受她这种家庭背景吗？他能忽略她的情感经历和三十三的年龄吗？如果这他都能接受，那他是不是一定长得很磕碜呀？<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+6buR5pqX5Lit5aSp56m65Ye6546w5LiA5py15beo5aSn55qE6Iqx5YS/77yM5a6D6L+O552A5pmT5qOg5LiA5Lya5YS/57u95pS+77yM5LiA5Lya5YS/6Zet5ZCI44CC5YyF5pmT5qOg6IOh5oCd5Lmx5oOz5LmL6Ze077yM5Zyo5YWs5Lqk6L2m5LiK6JOm5Zyw56yR5LqG77yM5LiA5Liq5Lq65YK75YK75Zyw56yR77yM5oKy5YeJ5Zyw56yR44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

    黑暗中天空出现一朵巨大的花儿，它迎着晓棠一会儿绽放，一会儿闭合。包晓棠胡思乱想之间，在公交车上蓦地笑了，一个人傻傻地笑，悲凉地笑。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

    三十三岁了，包晓棠多年求索，大概懂了人与人确定恋爱关系的某些秘密，那便是相似性。比如，他们无意中有着在同一个舞蹈队跳舞的母亲，无意中发现他们的初中竟是同一所学校，无意中得知他们曾是同一个乡镇的，无意中在一个旅游群里发现同样热爱旅游的对方，无意中确定他们均非常喜欢宠物狗，无意中惊讶他们竟是同一个楼里每天坐同一辆快车上班的，无意中指出对方正是某个大学的师兄师妹，无意中在同一个停车库每天晚上停车，无意中将某些电影看了十来遍台词脱口而出，无意中惊呼他们是同年同月同日生的，无意中判断出对方和自己一样酷爱甚至痴迷于某一种颜色……相似性将陌生人彼此拉近，相似性将互有好感、聊不完天的两人推入爱河。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

    包晓棠去哪里找一个和自己一样的男人呢？即便找到了，她如何看得上这么一个和她一样落魄的人。她能忍受自己大口大口地吃油泼面，却受不了对方和任何陕西人一样吃着面就着大蒜；她可以接受自己贫穷的内在但光线的装扮，可当对方与自己同出一辙时，她内心坚定地认为对方是虚荣的、可悲的；她认为自己通过努力可以提升学历和能力、可以美化人生和现实，但当同样低出身的对方认定通过努力可获得一个不错的未来时，她非常确信对方是真诚的、可笑的，同时是没有出息的。哪怕他英俊如潘安，哪怕他法力无边如二郎神，只要白马王子身上出现和自己的某些相似性——一星半点儿的相似性，她立马将对方打入无底天牢。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5Y6f5p2l77yM5aW56L+Z5LmI6K6o5Y6M6Ieq5bex44CC5aWz5Lq65rWR6Lqr5Yaw5YeJ77yM5aW95YOP5pWF5Lmh55qE6Zuq6Iqx6aOY6L+b5LqG5YWs5Lqk6L2m5YaF77yM6JC95Yiw5LqG5aW55omL5b+D6YeM77yM5aW55oqT5LiN5L2P77yM5Y+q5oSf6KeJ5omL5b+D5Yaw5YeJ44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

    原来，她这么讨厌自己。女人浑身冰凉，好像故乡的雪花飘进了公交车内，落到了她手心里，她抓不住，只感觉手心冰凉。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5aW555So5a+55a+55pa555qE576O5aW96KaB5rGC5p2l5o6p55uW6Ieq5bex55qE5aSx6LSl77yM5aW555So5YaF5b+D5a+55a+55pa55aSx6LSl55qE5oyH6LSj5p2l5oq15raI6Ieq5bex5Zyo546w5a6e5Lit5pa55pa56Z2i6Z2i55qE6JC95beu44CC5Zyo55yf5a6e55qE5pyL5Y+L5ZyI6YeM5aW55Y2R5b6u5b6X5aaC5bCY5Z+D5LiA6Iis77yM5L2G5Zyo576O6aOf55u05pKt55qE5bmz5Y+w5LiK5aW56auY5YKy5aaC5aSp6bmF77yM5Zug5Li66YKj6YeM5rKh5pyJ5LiA5Liq6K6k6K+G5aW55oiW5aW56K6k6K+G55qE5Lq644CC5rKh6ZSZ77yM5aW55Lmf5piv5LiA5Liq5YiG6KOC55qE5Lq644CC5aW55pei6Ieq5Y2R5Y+I5LyY6LaK77yM5aW55pei5oSa6KCi5Y+I57K+5piO77yM5aW55pei5aSx6LSl5Y+I6auY5YKy77yM5aW55pei57qv5rSB5Y+I5biD5ruh55GV55a144CC5aaC5piv5aSn5qW855+z54Gw57yd6YeM6ZW/5Ye655qE5LiA5p6d6ZW/5pil6Iqx77yM5pGH5pGG552A6Iqx5Yag5LiO57ua54OC77yM6IiS5bGV552A5riF5paw5LiO6Ieq5L+h77yM5rC46L+c6Z2i5pyd6JOd5aSp77yM5Zub5a2j5LiN5YCm5Zyw57u95pS+77yM5ZSv54us5LiN5oS/5L+v6aaW5aSa55yL5LiA55y86Ieq5bex5qC56YOo55qE5rGh56e95ZKM5bmy5be044CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

    她用对对方的美好要求来掩盖自己的失败，她用内心对对方失败的指责来抵消自己在现实中方方面面的落差。在真实的朋友圈里她卑微得如尘埃一般，但在美食直播的平台上她高傲如天鹅，因为那里没有一个认识她或她认识的人。没错，她也是一个分裂的人。她既自卑又优越，她既愚蠢又精明，她既失败又高傲，她既纯洁又布满瑕疵。如是大楼石灰缝里长出的一枝长春花，摇摆着花冠与绚烂，舒展着清新与自信，永远面朝蓝天，四季不倦地绽放，唯独不愿俯首多看一眼自己根部的污秽和干巴。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

    她举着一把看不清影子的破镜子，一直在寻找自己，始终看不到眼睛。她好像回到了过去，但她又清醒自己身处现在。自卑至此，她还有什么可骄傲的呢——容颜还是和莫小米莫须有的关系？包晓棠有些后悔进了莫家深圳分公司，那好像并非她该去的地方。沉溺在功利劳碌、朝生夕死的小公司里，她也许更真切一些。匍匐在大地上，她至少还能闻得到自己的汗味，陡然被拔高，好似入了迷境。迷境，令人彷徨。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

    周六这一天，钟学成早上在农批市场里醒来时发现爷爷早已上班去了，小孩从床头找到爷爷备给他的面包吃了早饭，上午写一写作业玩一玩手机。中午饭从冰箱里取出来后，自己在微波炉里热了两分钟，吃完饭午休，午休起来写作业，写了一个多小时开始玩乐高。学成沉浸于自己的世界，那世界好像静音了一样。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

    钟学成以前并非没有玩过乐高，近来如此迷恋，也许因为那是仔仔哥哥送给他的。这种迷恋的情节，如同每天放学时等爷爷接他的欣喜，如同放假时听小姨讲笑话等小姨做好饭的期待，如同每个周末晚上等姐姐电话的开心，如同每天早上醒来等妈妈抚摸额头的温暖。钟学成把仔仔哥哥当成他最好的朋友，将漾漾当成珍爱的小伙伴，每逢想起他们，他心中总是甜如蜜。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

    晚上亦复如是。今天晚上爷爷有事，要在外面忙，他又是一个人在卫生间里玩乐高。孤独的灵魂常常如此，重复刻板循规的生活或游戏，不怎么说话也不怎么好奇，害怕去学校也害怕出门，习惯独处也习惯发呆。节奏单调机械、空气静谧平和，那幅以钟学成为主角的画，常让看客看不出主人公竟是个八岁孩子。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

    卫生间成了他的王国，厕所是可恶的地狱妖怪，灯和窗外的阳光是保护他的太阳，盆子是他的练兵场，乐高零件是小兵小将，此刻，王国正在练兵场上操练将士。人们拥戴国王，因为国王是这个国家最强壮最勇敢的人，扫帚是他的魔法杖，拖把是他的大炮，爷爷的小板凳是他的王座，浴巾是他的皇袍，白色地板砖则是国王的独享乐园。国王嘟嘟嘟地噘着嘴指挥军队，窗台上的绿萝伸出了绿枝，化成国王的王冠；洗发水的香气是国王独有的暗器，当马桶妖作怪时他常用洗发水做毒气使用；墙上的小鱼儿和向日葵的贴画是这个国家的希望，它们带着国王去寻找敌人和宝藏；喷头是最大的敌人，他常常将国王和他的士兵喷得满身是水无法作战。所以，此时此刻，国王的当务之急是用乐高在盆子里造一艘大船，好让喷头怪来临时子民和国王的家人可以坐在大船里，大船保护国王和国家不被厕那个地狱妖怪吃掉。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

    钟学成玩得不亦乐乎，入神时嘴角微微上翘。正玩着，忽然间浑身一僵，听脚步声貌似爸爸回来了。小孩不确定，直起身子竖耳又听，果然是爸爸回来了。脚步到了楼梯上，学成火速将地上掉落的乐高零件捡入盆子里，如果乐高丢了一些关键部件那可不好了。小孩慌乱地捡着，不觉间爸爸的脚已到眼前。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5L2g5Zyo6L+Z5bmy5LuA5LmI77yf5L2c5Lia5YaZ5a6M5LqG5ZCX77yf4oCd5pma5LiK5YWr54K55aSa77yM5Zyo5aSW6Z2i5Zad5LqG6YWS55qE6ZKf55CG5Zue5a625ZCO77yM6KeB5a626YeM5rKh5Lq65LiK5qW855yL55yL77yM5Y+I55yL5Yiw5LqG5YS/5a2Q6Lqy5Zyo5Y2r55Sf6Ze06YeM546p44CC5pWw5qyh5LiJ55Wq5LiA5YaN5aOw5piO77yM5LuW6L+Y5piv5L6d54S25aaC5pWF77yM6ZKf55CG5YWo6Lqr5Yed5Zu644CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

    “你在这干什么？作业写完了吗？”晚上八点多，在外面喝了酒的钟理回家后，见家里没人上楼看看，又看到了儿子躲在卫生间里玩。数次三番一再声明，他还是依然如故，钟理全身凝固。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5a6M5LqG44CC4oCdPC9wPg=='));</script>

    “完了。”<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5oiR6Lef5L2g6K+06L+H5aSa5bCR6YGN5LqG77yB5Y+r5L2g5LiN6KaB5Zyo5Y6V5omA546p5LiN6KaB5Zyo5Y6V5omA546p77yM6L+Z6YeM5YWJ57q/5pqX56m65rCU5LiN5aW977yM5L2g6Lqy5Zyo6L+Z6YeM5bmy5LuA5LmI44CC4oCd6ZKf55CG5LiA5byA5Y+j54Gr5rCU55u05YaS77yM5LuW5bC95Yqb5Y6L5Yi2552A77yM5Y205Ly85LmO5Y6L5LiN5L2P44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

    “我跟你说过多少遍了！叫你不要在厕所玩不要在厕所玩，这里光线暗空气不好，你躲在这里干什么。”钟理一开口火气直冒，他尽力压制着，却似乎压不住。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5rKh5bmy5LuA5LmI44CC4oCd5bCP5a2p5L2O5LiL5aS05Zue562U44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

    “没干什么。”小孩低下头回答。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5rKh5bmy5LuA5LmI77yf6L+Z55uG5a2Q6YeM55qE5piv5LuA5LmI77yf4oCd6ZKf55CG6K+05a6M5oqs6LW36ISa5LiA6ISa5bCG55uG5a2Q6Lii6aOe77yM55uG5a2Q56Kw5Yiw5aKZ57+75YCS77yM5LmQ6auY55qE6Zu25Lu25pWj6JC95LiA5Zyw77yM5aW95Lqb55u05o6l5o6J6L+b5LqG5Y6V5omA5Z2R6YeM44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

    “没干什么？这盆子里的是什么？”钟理说完抬起脚一脚将盆子踢飞，盆子碰到墙翻倒，乐高的零件散落一地，好些直接掉进了厕所坑里。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5a2m5oiQ5pyb552A5LmQ6auY77yM5b+D55eb5LiN5bey77yM5Lik55y855uv552A5Y6V5omA5Z2R5Y+R6LW35LqG55e077yM55e05Lit5pyJ5oGQ5oOn44CB5pyJ5pyo6K6344CB5pyJ5b+D55a844CB5pyJ5oSk5oCS44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

    学成望着乐高，心痛不已，两眼盯着厕所坑发起了痴，痴中有恐惧、有木讷、有心疼、有愤怒。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5b+r54K55Ye65p2l77yB5Zyo5oi/6Ze05bqK5LiK546p5LiN6KGM5ZCX77yf5Zyo5qW85LiL5a6i5Y6F546p44CB5Zyo5rKZ5Y+R5LiK546p5LiN6KGM5ZCX77yf6Lmy5Zyo5Y6V5omA5bmy5LuA5LmI77yf4oCd6ZKf55CG5LiA6IS454uw54ue77yM6KeB5YS/5a2Q6L+f6L+f5LiN5Yqo5by577yM5pu05Yqg54Gr5YaS5LiJ5LiI44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

    “快点出来！在房间床上玩不行吗？在楼下客厅玩、在沙发上玩不行吗？蹲在厕所干什么？”钟理一脸狰狞，见儿子迟迟不动弹，更加火冒三丈。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+6ZKf5a2m5oiQ6KKr54i25Lqy5ZC85b6X5oqW5LqG5LiL6IKp6IaA77yM5LiN5Li65omA5Yqo5oqR5oiW5piv5LiN55+l5omA5o6q44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

    钟学成被父亲吼得抖了下肩膀，不为所动抑或是不知所措。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5oiR5Y+r5L2g5Ye65p2l5ZGi77yB5ZCs6KeB5rKh44CC4oCd6ZKf55CG55yL5LiN5oeC5YS/5a2Q55qE5Y+N5bqU77yM5rCU5b6X5omv552A5ZeT5a2Q6auY5ZC844CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

    “我叫你出来呢！听见没。”钟理看不懂儿子的反应，气得扯着嗓子高吼。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+6ZKf5a2m5oiQ5L2O5LiL5aS077yM5Y6f5bCB5LiN5Yqo4oCU4oCU5aSp55+l6YGT6L+Z5a2p5a2Q5q2k5Yi75b+D6YeM5Zyo5oOz5LuA5LmI5ZGi44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

    钟学成低下头，原封不动——天知道这孩子此刻心里在想什么呢。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5Ye65LiN5Ye677yf4oCdPC9wPg=='));</script>

    “出不出？”

    请勿开启浏览器阅读模式，否则将导致章节内容缺失及无法阅读下一章。<h3>80中 暴怒下一掌失手 痴呆中右耳出血（第2页）</h3><script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+6ZKf55CG5L2O5aOw6Zeu5a6M6KeB5peg5bqU562U77yM5LiK5Y675LiA5be05o6M6JC95Zyo6ISR6Zeo5LiK44CC5a2m5oiQ5pac552A6Lqr5a2Q5omb552A77yM5Lik55y854ug54ug5Zyw5pac556F552A54i25Lqy55qE5LiA5Li+5LiA5Yqo77yM5Lik6IKp5b6u6IC477yM6ZqP5pe25YGa5aW95LiL5LiA5be05o6M6JC95LiL5p2l55qE5YeG5aSH44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

    钟理低声问完见无应答，上去一巴掌落在脑门上。学成斜着身子扛着，两眼狠狠地斜瞅着父亲的一举一动，两肩微耸，随时做好下一巴掌落下来的准备。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+6ZKf55CG5Y+I6Zeu77yM6KeB5YS/5a2Q6L+Y5piv5LiN5Yqo5by577yM5b+D5Lit5pq05oCS5LiN5Y+v6YGP77yM5LiA6ISa6Leo6L+b5Y2r55Sf6Ze06YeM77yM5pyd6ISR6Zeo5omT5LqG5Lik5be05o6M5ZCO77yM6ZqP5py65bCG5a2m5oiQ5omz5YCS77yM5pyd552A5bGB6IKh5L2/5Yqy5Zyw5omT77yM6KeB5omL5o6M55So5LiN5LiK5Yqy77yM55S35Lq65o2i5LiK5LqG5ouz5aS077yM5LiA5ouz5LiA5ouz6JC95Zyo5LqG5a2m5oiQ55qE5bGB6IKh5LiK77yM6L655omT6L655ZaK4oCc5Ye65LiN5Ye64oCd44CC5omT5LqG5Y2B5p2l5ouz77yM6KeB5bCP5a2p57u3552A6Lqr5a2Q5LiA5aOw5LiN5ZCt77yM6ZKf55CG5bCG5a2m5oiQ-->>

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